Haven from Reality

The title may seem like overdoing it, but it was the first thing that came to me, and after some thought I think it best sums up what I have to say.
Chris Benoit and his wife and son were found dead yesterday afternoon in their home. TO say that I'm shocked is a collosal understatement, but the sad truth is that I'm having a hard time figuring out what to think, nevermind what to say.
Much to my misfortune I've never met Chris Benoit, and I've never had the pleasure to see him wrestle in person. I don't know him personally, and I don't have any blood relation to him that I'm aware of. But I admired him. I revered him. He was one of my heroes, one that I spent a solid portion of my teenaged and later years watching.
I'm not going to detail his whole career here, unfortunatly I don't know most of it, but I wanted to cover the stuff here that was important to me. I admired in him that he was so hard working, something I feel I lack in myself. I admired the confidence that he carried himself with, that sort of quiet authority that demanded respect he'd earned. I liked that he was quiet both in character and out, and of course I liked that he was Canadian.
Maybe it's silly to revere someone you've never met, or to admire someone you've never spoken to...but I do. I can't bring myself to use the past tense because I'm going to keep respecting and admiring the person that Chris Benoit is, even though he's moved on now.
I've been in off and on tears since I first heard the news, and broke down near the end of the tribute show that was held by the WWE in his honour. He'd only just turned fourty earlier this year, which makes him still a pretty young guy as far as I'm concerned, there should have been a lot of life there yet. It seems so collosally unfair for such a promising life to be cut so short, especially under the circumstances it seems that his may have been. I suppose the answer would be "life isn't fair", but I personally find that trite.
I'm sort of rambling, which is what I wanted, but I'm running out of things to say while I ramble. I genuinely liked Chris Benoit, both as an entertainer and from what I knew of him as a person. I feel stunned and a little gutted to know that he's passed away, and I'm still in more then a little disbelief. Although they'll likely never read this, my sympathy, my condolences, and my heart go out to Benoit's friends and family. I can only begin to imagine the grief they must be facing, and sadly can't offer anything more then that. Chris Benoit was a great man. He is my hero and I will miss him terribly.

Rest in Peace Chris Benoit. 1967 to 2007.

Weapon of Choice:Nothing

Decided to clear out some old junk from the site and maybe make a fresh start over. I'll be mucking around with colour and background and such over the next little while, going to see if I can remember how al this works.

Weapon of Choice: Return to Innocence by Enigma